If you truly want to know who you are, it is time to "about face" ...go inward and watch.
We are very good at watching. We watch; movies, sports, nature, performers,
performances, nature, storms, sunrises, sunsets, moons, stars, our children,
each other, our pets, traffic, fires, stocks, ceremonies, initiations, someone
or something struggling with illness, pain, death etc...we watch a lot! We
watch for pleasure, job/responsibilities, safety, accountability, to
learn, because we have too, because we care, etc...We watch everything outside
of ourselves and react, respond.
When we watch externally we generally experience a sensation, feeling an
emotion and usually have a story to tell of the experience. Watching inward
yields to just watching, with no sensation, feelings or emotions. As soon as
there is a sensation, a reaction, you have given thought attention and watching
ceases. This is a moment to ask, "Who is paying attention to this
thought?" "Who is reacting to this thought?"
Watching inward is a mind activity that allows you to rest from being caught
up in thought, a rest from the personal “I” identity. With practice watching
thought & not identifying with it, you begin to loosen the control, the grip
of the “I” identity. In time, you pay attention to thought only when you honestly
need to, refreshingly this doesn’t happen as often as one may think!